Narrowing down of ideas.

Work has been slow lately, which means I have had a bit more time at home. Which is both good and bad. It's also been unseasonably hot here, 97, 98, and 96 degree days this week along with the other four days being in the low to mid 90's. The good thing is that we have gotten some rain. Much needed, and appreciated. The rain has been much appreciated as well by people that don't really like it so hot. (Me..) I'm not used to this even after being here a year and a half.

One thing that heat does in other ways is facilitate movement, action, change. My fiancé and I are finally back to planning our wedding after several set backs. This time, it feels right. I have been able to think about what I want to do, and how am I going to get there. It's allowed me to think about other things as well. I have realized that some of my extravagant hopes and dreams need to be tempered and broken up into pieces. I had this idea with a friend of mine, of setting up a small homesteading or self sufficient community of people with similar beliefs or what was probably going to end up being a group of friends living on a farm out in the middle of no where growing their own food, and killing their own meat as well as living as much as would be possible off of the grid.

I had this grandiose idea that we would need a few hundred, if not a thousand acres to "Do it right." I have came to realize that maybe we need to scale it back. 15 acres instead of 1,500. or maybe even less than 15. Buying 15 acres of land some where is much more achievable than finding 1,500 in just the right location, that would be able to check all of the boxes that I would love to have in a piece of land.

This is a case of possibly getting more done with smaller steps than by making giant strides. The smaller steps leave you, surely on more secure footing. You don't risk out stepping your ground and falling off of a cliff. Planning, and Saving, and research are going to be needed to achieve this idea. It's not as grand as owning everything as far as the eye could see, but it's a definite beginning if I can start from that point. Any beginning is better than none. I have work to do with the land and the spirits of the land. Much we can do together. A revolution is coming in many ways, and  by being closer with the earth I think that the wave can be ridden out, to the show. We are in a transition and it could damn well be bloody both literally and metaphorically.

The heat sears, the heat makes you examine your psyche, and your ideas. It helps you condense and purify them. It helps you focus, so that you know where it is you are going. I need now to begin researching small farms, and issues, and ideas relating to them. I also need to learn how to better budget both my time and my finances. At what dollar amount is doing this job or that job worth it. What salary will allow me to support my family, and my farm. Is there anything we could start right now on the homestead to begin making money?

There is a lot to cut through, and organize. But it's a start. And after being 95 today it's raining. I'm going to go relax.